Jeshere Is How Her Name Is Spelled (:

Girls Do What They Want, Boys Do What They Can.

2010-01-16T06:28:00.000-08:00

Fucking Annoyed With My Life. Seriously, Lies Here & There. All Bullshit Starts Poping Up. Changing Myself Is Hard. But Fuck, I'm Doing The Best I Can Already. But Shitloads Of Problem Keeps Coming Up Over & Over Again. As If One Problem Isin't Enough, Everything's Going Downhill. & Yeah. EVERYTHING. Downhill Not In A Bad Way. But Slowly Getting Worst. Ah Fuck. This Is Getting On My Nevers. Been Irritated By Everything , Fustration. Wanna Concentrate On Studies Also Difficult. What To Do. Guess It's True Then, 'Once Your Life Is Messed Up, It Stays Messed Up'. Or Maybe It's For Me. Ffs, I'm Ranting My Anger Here. How Pathatic. Waste My Time On This Shitty Fucked Up Blog. I Don't Think I'll Blog Anymore.

It's Meaningless.

2009-12-24T21:14:00.000-08:00

I Don't Know Your Actual Reason. But That's Your Choice & There's No Fucking Thing I Can Do Bout It.

Finally.

2009-12-23T14:02:00.000-08:00

Since I've Re-done My Blog. I Guess I'm Suppose To Update. No Difference Between The Past Whole Month. Things Aren't Really Going, 'WOOOHOOO'. Xmas Is Around The Corner. 2 Days To Be Exact. But That Sucks. I Mean. Nevermind. Holidays Are Eating Up My Lifetime. Getting Bored By The Day. School's Reopening. No Excitement There. We're Coming To Our 16th Months. Yippie For That. I Know This Whole Post Is Gonna Sound Boring & Dead. I'm Just To Lazy To Elaborate. My Bad. I Was Suppose To Update Like 2weeks Ago. Or Should I Say 1 Week. But, I'm An Asshole That Really Sucks So I'm Soo Sorry To JESHERE LIM. For Not Updating. But At Least I Am Now. I Know. Not Good Enough. Even I Find That True Myself. So This Whole Post Is Dedicated To Her. & I KNOW I'M FUCKING LATE.
CONGRATULATIONS ON YOUR 15 POINTS FOR 'N' Levels♥

Sky Driver

2009-11-23T04:31:00.000-08:00

Time For An Update!

End.

The Easiest Thing.

2009-11-20T06:00:00.000-08:00

GIVE UP,

The Only Possible Solution.

Feel Good Drag .

2009-10-20T23:26:00.000-07:00

"I'm here for you" she said

and we can stay for awhile,

my boyfriend's gone,

we can just pretend.

Lips that need no introduction

Now who's the greater sin,

Your drab eyes seem to invite

Everyone in this town

is seeing somebody else

Everybody's tired of someone

our eyes wander for help

Prayers that need no answer now

I'm tired of who I am

You were my greatest mistake

I fell in love with your sin

Your littlest sin .

Anyway , Top's The Lyircs ( I Just Took The Chorus & Some Words Off . ) It's A Totally Rocking Song For Head Banging If You Aren't That Into Hard Rock. I've Got Nothing Much To Update About . Anyway , I'm More Active On Tumbr .
www.t-twentysix.tumblr.com . FOLLOW ME IF YOU HAVE Kay !

I Love My Girlfriend . & This Relationship WILL Last . (:

2009-10-10T06:50:00.000-07:00

Always All Ways (Apologies, Glances And Messed Up Chances)
Another Day Passes By , But Yet Things Remain The Same . I've Changed , I'm Different . That Why The World Revolves Right? Everyone Changes . Who Can Stop It ? Things Don't Go The Way We All Want To , There's The , 'SOMEONE' That Needs To Be Right , & We Don't Choose Who's Right Or Wrong . We Make Mistakes , Move On To The Next Day , That's It. You've Got Guys Going Out Making Problems , & They Give You Their Reason. ' I See You Not Happy' Or ' Your Face Like Shit ' . What Kind Of Bullshit Is That ? Guys In School Think That Just Cause They Know People In Gang , Makes Them Better Than Everyone Else. I'm Bored Of That . Seriously , Look At My Point Of View . You Waste 1-2 Hours To Settle A Problem So Small , Just To Get Your Satisfaction . You're Fucking Pathetic.

(FYI, I've Decided To Split My Blog Into 3 Parts , Random Thoughts(Above) About Me (Below) & The Last Part, Is For None Of You )

All The News Make Up For The Silence.
It Feels Like Whatever Happens To Me Don't Make Me In A Good Mood . It Really Feels Like Ages Since I Felt So.. Overjoyed. I Seriously Am Getting Bored . I Want To Pick Up Something New , But There's Always A Catch . Which Means I Have To Make Choices , It's Hard For Me To Make Choices . Cause I'll Think, ' What If I Choose This, & They Don't Like My Choice' It's Rather Easy For Them Since They Know What They Want . But I Don't . I've Got This Thought For Awhile : I've Got Everything I Want In Life , But Why Do I Feel So Empty ? & What I Mean My Empty Is That I'm Forgetting Something , Or There's More , But I Don't Know What More I Want Or Need .

Rainbow Veins.
It's Been Awhile Since I've Had The Chance To Tell You How Much I'm Greatful That You've Done So Much For Me , But At The Same Time , I Feel That I've Haven't Been Taking Care Of You Well Enough . & Irritating You Instead . You've Taken Me So Far , Through Out Everything , You've Been There . Good Or Bad , You'd Do Everything Possible That You Could Think Of . No Matter How Much You Hated Me , You'd Still Care . You'd Insult Me In Anyway Possible , & We'd Laugh Our Asses Off . You're Taking This More Seriously Than Me , I Guess I'm Still Imatured . But I'll Try To Be More Matured , Cause That's What You Want . But At The Same Time , You've Got To Learn To Control Your Temper . Or Maybe We Both Can Help Each Other Contol Our Temper , How ? I'm Not So Sure , But Let's Share Our Ideas . I Know I'm Just Like Every Guy , But I Hope That Every Other Guy , Is Not Me . I Just Can't Express Myself Towards You , Trying To Tell You How Happy I Am To Have You . Every Word Really Can't Describe . I Love You Bi!

Conclusion:
Get Every Chance , Spend It With Your Loved Ones.

2009-09-26T02:48:00.000-07:00

I'm Far , But You're Further .

You People Miss My Blog ? Sorry I Closed It Down , But I Guess I'm Bringing It Back Alive . Anyway . I Lost Everyone's Link , Sorry Bout That . But Please Tag To Relink , Or I'll Just Leave It Like That . Nothing Much Been Happening . I Feel Bored With Life . I Don't Talk On The Phone Or Spend Time With Friends . I Don't Even See A Point Of Having Friends Who Say , ' I Will Talk To You , If You Talk To Me . If Not , We Won't Talk ' . That's Just Rubbish . Lately I've Been Hearing Loads Of Crap From People . Well , Strangers , Passerbys . They're Speaking All Kinds Of Rubbish . I Shant Elaborate . It's So Stupid How People Feel That They're Perfect . Well , To Me , Perfect Is Something You Accomplished & You're Happy With It , Not Something You Created Or Something Better Than Everything Eles . Growing Up . You Learn How People Affect You , You Don't See It . To Be Honest , Even Myself Didn't Notice How I Change . I Took Things To Lightly . But It's Better That You Find A Way To Resolve Something So That Both Parties , Including Yourself Are Happy With It . Not Every Choice We Make Satisfy Everyone's Needs , But It's Better For Us To Satisfy Something Rather Than Nothing , Right ? Sorry If I Think Differently From Everyone Eles . But It's Just My Opinion . So , Don't Go Blabering Rubbish . With This Post , I Leave My Blog Unwritten Till Here .
To Friends Out There , Let Me Start New By Saying Sorry If I Ever Said Any Harsh Things That May Have Offended You , Well Then Sorry . But If You're Someone Who's Really F*ked Up , Then Yeah , I Insulted You For A Reason , You're Not That Big Of A Deal To Me , So Don't Give Me Doggy Faces In School .
Baby , Happy 13th Month ♥

2009-09-08T10:56:00.000-07:00

Burn The Night Away ,

I've Decided To Revive My Blog , So I Hope My Readers Will Come Back & Read Once Again . Life's Been The Same , But Things Are Changing In Me , Or At Least I'm Trying To Change , Even Me Myself Is Seeing Difference In Myself . Mom's Not In Town Again . She's Flying For The Next Two Weeks . Sometimes I Wonder Will She Ever Not Fly . But She The Only One Supporting My Family , So She Rocks Alright ! Better Than Your Mom . Kidding . Every Mom Is Special In Their Own Way . Didn't Really Do Much Today . Bummer . I'm Gonna Eat Before I Go To Bed . Update Tomorrow .
H-anes.

2009-09-03T07:13:00.000-07:00

Get Ready For The Pain .

Alright , Due To Reasons , I'll Be Updating My Blog Now & Then . But I Won't Be Saying Much . Going To Just Update A Touch Of What's Been Going On .

Been Watching UFC Fights .
Decided That My Last Choice Of Future Is To Train Till I Get To Be In UFC .
Starting To Face Life As It Is , & Not My Way .

There's Nothing Much To Say Alright . Untill Things Change , Or Rather I Change , Things Won't Be Updated Much . If You're Having Problems Contacting Me , E-mail Me @ H-anes@hotmail.com . I'll Get Back To You Asap .

2009-08-08T22:14:00.000-07:00

There Barely Was A Lesson Learned Last Post Before Goodbye .

Inactive . I Hope Things Get Better.

2009-07-03T03:55:00.000-07:00

If Education Brings You Home , Then Why Are You Still Away

For Far Too Long ,
Things Haven't Been The Same .

Day & Night Everything Runs Through My Mind ,

Like A Balloon Floating Up , But It Know's It'll Eventually Burst .

But Would It Float It Has A Choice ? If I Was The Balloon .

I'd Still Float Up , Cause It's Worth Taking Risks .

The Consequence Would Be Me Gone . But Doing Something Worth It ,

Makes No Regrets . I'm Not What People Want Me To Be ,

All I Want Right Now , Is Everything To Be Normal Again .

2009-07-01T01:53:00.000-07:00

The Heart Of Everything .

I Just Need To Hear You ,

Just Like We Used To .

2009-06-30T06:58:00.000-07:00

Your Voice Was All I Heard

I'll Turn Off The Lights And Let You Sleep .

Just Close Your Eyes , Relex & Breathe .

In Slowly , No Don't Feel Lonely Cause I'll Be Right Here By Your Side If You Shold Wake Up At Night .

Keep Dreaming Cause I'll Be Keeping Your Heart In Mine .

Don't You Know I'll Always Be Here .

Even In My Hardest Time , Don't You Know My Spirit's Right Here .

When You're Feeling Sad , Just Remember That ;

Even When I'm Not There For You ,

My Heart Will Always Stay The Same .

So Close Your Eyes ,

I'm By Your Side .

♥:26th.

2009-06-30T01:33:00.000-07:00

To Passerby ,

(No Picture Insterted)

I Know You're Friendly & Stuff , And I Know You're Intrested In My Life . But Who Are You ? Could You Not Be A Passerby ? Geez . Just Write Your Name Down , Cause It's Bothering Me . Are You Trying To Stalk Me Or Something ?

2009-06-28T00:31:00.000-07:00

Wait.

Srewing Up The Best Thing Ever ,
Is Something You'll Regret Forever .

2009-06-27T02:31:00.000-07:00

Hang On To Every Word She Says .

(No Picture Inserted)

2009-06-26T01:53:00.000-07:00

Happy 10 Months(:

It's 10months Ago When We Knew Each Other , & Really . It's Been An Amazing Experience For Me , This Whole Relationship Made Me Feel , That This Can Really Last . I've Got You Always There For Me . You're Always The One Cheering Me Up , Going Through My Problems With Me . I Can't Thank You Enough For All The Support You've Given Me . We Had To Face Problems We Never Thought We'd Face . But We Made It Through . Remember Those Days We Went Out , There's Always Something That Had To Do With The Number '26' . We Feel The Same Way For Each Other . & This Realationship Is A Totally Different Relationship . It's Not An Average I Like You , You Like Me . But Something Special We Share . Though We Have Our Misunderstandings , You'd Always Pull Through & Understand . Days That I've Spent With You Were Days I Wished I Didn't Have To Go . Cause Standing Right Beside You Makes Me Just So High . Like A Small Boy . No Matter What , I'd Always Love You . & Even Whoever Wants To Speak About Us , Why Should We Care ? We're The One In This . Not Them . I'll Always Be There To Protect You . I'll Always Be There For You . You're Mine , I'm Yours . 26th August 2008 . You Make Me Love That Day So Much . It's A Feeling That I Can't Describe . 10Months Is Long . But I Want A Lifetime . Happy 10Months Jeshere♥

TwentySix ;

It's A Lifelong Relationship ,

That Only Both Of Us Share .

2009-06-25T16:26:00.000-07:00

No , I'm Not . I Just Wished.

Readers , This Might Be A Little Too Much For You Guys To Read . It's For Everyone . I'll Start Now . Growing Up , I Always Wished I Was An Adult . Now , I Just Wished I Was A Child . I Messed Up My Own Life , I Make People's Life Hard For Them . I'm Not A Son That My Parents Are Proud Of , I'm A Son They Wished They Never Had . A Brother Who Take Things Without Anyone Knowing . I'm Just Not A Good Person At All .

To Mom, : You're Always There For Me , But Where Was I ? Pushing You Away From Me . Always Rejecting Spending Quality Time With You , & Whenever I Was In Trouble , You'd Cover For Me , You'd Always Be There No Matter How Far You Are . You're Really The Best Mother A Son Could Ask For . The Family Is Falling Apart , Cause Of Me . Not You Nor Anyone Eles . I'd Always Blame You Or Everyone That No One Was There For Me . But The Fact Was , I Was Only Finding My Way Out Of Getting Into Trouble . You Always Had High Hopes For Me , But I Always Gave Up On Boring Things & Only Focused On Things I Enjoyed Doing . But Where Would That Take Me To. No Studies , Means No Future . I Can't Get You That Porche That I Promised You , I Can't Be That Piolt You Wanted Me To Be . All The Times I Made You Cry , Telling You Over & Over Again That I'll Change . I Really Did . I Started Off By Calling Up All My Friends , Apologising For Any Time That I Made Them Angry , Insulted Them , Or Hurt Them . Syed Actually Told Me That We're Friends . It's Part Of It . One Of My Friend Actually Cried . But As Days Passed , I Lost The Feeling Of Changing . I've Seen My Sister Go Through This . Everyone Says They've Been Through What I Have . But What About Now ? Has Anyone Been Through This ? I Don't Blame Anyone For The Way I Am Now . Whatever My Character is , That's Just The Way I Am .

To Dad, : As Much As I Know I Don't Like You . At The End Of The Day , You're My Dad . My Aunt Told Me That If Something Went Wrong , You'd Want Me To Be Strong Bout It . You Don't Want Me To Be A Son That Would Cry Over Small Things . Everytime I Showed You How Well I Did For My Studies , You'd Always Say , Okay . Or Do Better Next Time . There Was No Sign Of You Really Bothering About My Studies Unless It Was Flawless . Till The Day I Talked To Angus , He Told Me That You Said You Didn't Know How To Show Your Emotions . I Don't Think You'd Care About Whats Going On Now . I'm Sorry For The Way I Treated You , Humiliating You . Saying That You're Not The Dad I Wanted , That You Never Gave A Shit . But I Was Wrong . If You Really Knew How Angus Felt Right Now , You'd Be Touched Bout The Way He Feels For You .

To Sister, : You're Always Screaming At Me . But I Found Out Why . You Shouting Showed How Much You Cared . But I Never Ever Jumped To That Conclusion , Caused It Seems That You Never Did Care . I Was Wrong . You Always Did . I Just Didn't Like The Way You Approached Things . Or Even Approach Me . Deep Down , I Do Care . But Sometimes We Both Get On Each Other Nerves . Like When We Were Young , I'd Pull Your Hair , Just To Irritate You . We're Just Two Different People , You're Booksmart , You're Talented . But What Am I ? I'm Just Better At Sports , But Not Professional . I Try Picking Up Something I'm Intrested , But I Can't Get It Right . You've Really Got A Great Future Ahead Of You With What You're Doing In Your Life . We've Got Our Seperate Ways . But Just Know That I'm Cheering For You In My Mind , Even If I'm An Asshole To You .

I Love You Guys From The Bottom Of my Heart . If I'm Not There For You , I Still Do Think About You .

2009-06-23T19:39:00.000-07:00

Pumps Of A Heartbeat.

Okayy . Bi's Going For A Surgery Today . & I'm Home Freaking Worried Bout Her . I Mean Seriously , Right Now I Really Don't Know What I Can Do . & I Wanna Be There For Her In Any Way Possible . Gah . I Know It's Only A Minor Surgery , BUT IT'S STILL A SURGERY !! & Yes , I'm Over-Worrying . I Know . But How Am I Not Suppose To Worry Abit ? Or Even Normally ?! Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I'm Praying ! I'm Praying k ! Eventhough I Know Nothing's Gonna Go Wrong . But I Still Worry , Weird . I Know . Waiting For Her Call Now . FASTER CALL ME !! @#$%

2009-06-19T01:45:00.000-07:00

This Feels , Weird.

Don't Plan On Updating Much , But I'm Alone At Home , Which Is Really Really Boring . & I've Got Not Much To Do On The Comp , So I've Decided To Update My Blog . Anyway , Don't Ask Me Why I Uploaded This Picture . It Just Describes How I Really Feel Right Now ? Very , Odd . Y'know . Nvm , I Don't Want To Elaborate . Sorry About Today's Post , It's More Of A , Picture Post . Anyway , I Really Miss Having You Around . Seriously.

2009-06-16T01:21:00.000-07:00

Stay Out , I DON'T WANT YOU IN IT .

So By The Post You Know It's Dedicated To 1 Person , & YOU FUCKING KNOW IT WELL ENOUGH THAT IT'S FOR YOU . I've Said It Once Or More , Fucking Stop Getting Into My Life , You Wanna Help ? Fuck Off . Seriously . Everyday You've Gotta Nag Like You're A Mother . What Makes You Think You're All That ? Cause He's A Drag ? Cause I'm A Drag ? That Makes You The One That Always Makes ' THE DIFFERENCE ' ? STOP FINDING MY BLOG , STOP GOING THROUGH MY THINGS . STOP EVERYTHING . You're Being A Pain In My Ass . You Tell Me , I Wanna Do Something , You Eveyday Bad Mood , Ask You Small Things You Start Shouting , " What , Lazy la , About What " Getting Pissed Off At Small Things . You're The One With The Fucking Problem , Not Me . I've Got My Own Problem , That Don't Even Fucking Concern You , I Don't Go To Your Blog Check Stuff . I DON'T EVEN GIVE A FUCK WHAT YOU POST ABOUT . Stick To Your Stuff , & I'll Stick To Mine . You're Close To Her , So What . She Trust You . So What . I Listen To Her , Not You . Even If She Ask Me To , Why Would I ? FUCKER , STOP VIEWING MY BLOG . I've Got A Damn Tracker FYI . Get Yourself Damn Labled , 2 sided Face Reporter . That'll Describe You're Whole Character . You Tell Me How To Talk To You Nicely If You're Always Throwing Temper At Me . Small Small Thing Also Want Shout Here Shout There . Don't Deny It . You're Always Shouting At Me . YOU DON'T FUCKING KNOW HOW TO ASK NICELY IS IT ? I Admit Got Times Where You Ask Nicely I Shouted , BUT YOU'RE LIKE EVERY SINGLE FUCKING DAY . You Know What . Simple .

YOU FUCK OFF & DON'T GIVE A FUCK BOUT ME = ME HAPPY .

I DON'T GIVE A FUCK BOUT YOU = YOU HAPPY .

BOTH PARTY HAPPY .

2009-06-15T00:19:00.000-07:00

Send Me An E-Mail.

Alright , Cause Of Passerby Having Weird Feelings Towards Me .(Kidding) I Shall Update Since I've Got Nothing To Do . Bored At Home Seriously , I HAVEN'T EVEN GONE OUT ONCE DURING THIS @#$% HOLIDAYS . C'mon , Someone Ask Me Out . & I'm Trying To Earn Money To Help My Family & Also For Myself . So People ,
http://www.h-anesonshots.blogspot.com/ Come & Help Support Me !! My Friend Helped Me To Go Around Asking For A Price , & That's Counted Cheap Ok ! No Worries . Trust Me k ! Anyway , Bi Went To Her Aunty House . (Cannot Talk To Her) Rah . Nvm , I Haven't Had My Lunch Yet . & It's 3.30 . I'm Gonna Make Mac & Cheese . That's Going To Be The First Time I Ate That . Cool . Tasteless . Anyway , No Plans Ahead . Maybe Photo shoots . I Need Models , Any Volunteers ? No Pay , Maybe Got . But Few Bucks . I'm Low On Cash . Heh . No One's Giving Me So . Yap . Till My Next Update .
Take Care ,
H-anes.

TAGS REPLIED !

Charmaine /- Thank You :D

SD /- _l_

Germaine /- Hi.

Korin /- Nth .

Cherie /- Kay .

Korin /- 7 Years Bad Luck .

Passerby /- Thank You For Enjoying To Read My Blog ? o.o & Updated For You . LOL.

Germaine /- I Famous What.

2009-06-06T10:58:00.000-07:00

Never Knew .

For Baby : I'm Sorry Bout The Way I Treated You . I Never Cared About You Like You Wanted Me To Didn't I ? I Can't Make Up For The Mistakes I've Done . But They Way I Made You Feel Made Me Hold A Grudge On Myself That I Couldn't Bear . I Wanna Work Things Out With You , Please ? You Know How Badly I Want You To Stay Beside Me , But It Feels Like You're Going To Leave Me , Are You ? Please Keep Your Promises . I Know You Don't Trust Me Every Single Bit . But I Want You To & I Really Do Care About You . I Can't Fall Asleep , I Want You Here Right Now . I Need You Here . My Head Keeps Spinning , I Keep Having So Many Thoughts , I Know How Much You Hate Them & I'm Sorry . I'll Change . I'll Make My Word . Baby , I Love You & I'm Sorry For The Pain I've Made You Feel ...

Remember Those Words You Didn't Know I Was Refering Them To You ?
我真的很想念你
& 我想要在你身旁

I Love You Jeshere , 260808 , 9 months .

What To Do ?

2009-06-02T02:11:00.000-07:00

Alright People . Sorry For The Super Late Updates Due To Reasons I Won't Speak Off . Well , It Got Me In A Bad State , Got Me Angry , Sad . But Yeah . Don't Talk About That . Oh , & By The Way . HANDPHONE BEEN CONFISCATED DUE TO REASONS . DON'T CONTACT . WANT CONTACT ME LEAVE AN OFFLINE MSG IN MSN . So Things Been Going Up Down Up Down . Trying To Make Things Workout & Stabilize . & I've Got Not Much To Update . But I've Got A Sentence Or 2 For Today's Whole Day .

"All The Lil Things You Do , I Notice . Even The Huge Ones . & It Makes A Difference"

2009-05-16T11:35:00.000-07:00

The Strongest Feeling You've Given Me .

Hello People , & Sorry For The Super Duper Ultra Mega Lame Boring Stupid Updates ! I've Been Busy With Exams & Well , I Don't Get To Use The Computer During Weekdays . Apologies ! But Right Now , I'm Not Gonna Update Much About Anything . But Just A Special Post For : JESHERE♥

Hai Baby , Remember Those Promises We Swore To Keep When We Were First Together ? Remember All The Laughter We Enjoyed During Any Of Our Conversations ? Well Things Do Change , & We've Really Been Through Alot . We've Gone Through Fights , Doubts , Stress , Pressure , Insults . But We Really Picked Each Other Up From The Beginning Till Right Now . You Know That I Told You This Relationship Would Be Always , & For 8Months . I Kept My Word . But 8Months Won't Be Enough For Me , I Want My Lifetime To Be Spent With You . Through All Our Fights , We Managed To Work Things Out . Through All The Changes We Made , We Changed Each Other Into What We Wanted Each Other To Be .We've Done So Much To Make This Relationship Last This Long , & I Will Keep My Word When I Say , " Baby , You're My Lifeline . " I Know Others Think That I'm 'Just Another Guy' . But You Didn't . You Really Made Me Feel That I Was Something . Any Guy Would Say This . Any Adult Reading This Would Say It's Cheezy . But You Know What . All Things Said , Are Really Ment , When You've Felt That Feeling . You Really Play A Big Role In My Life . You're Just Giving Me This Feeling That You're Always Gonna Be There . & You've Always Been . I Know I've Been An Asshole At Times . But You've Learn How To Deal With Me . All The Times I Got Jealous Over Guys Who Talked To You , You Really Thought Me How To Change . You're Making My Love Stronger Each Day With Your Voice , Your Laughter . You're Always Cheering Me Up Each Day . & For You To Tell Me That You're Willing To Do Anything It Takes , Just So We Could Be Together . You've Really Done So Much For Me , & I've Done Yet So Little For You . You've Made Me Feel That This Relationship Would Really Work Out . Like It Was Really Ment For Us To Be Together . People May Say That This Relationship Is Fake , But What Do They Know ? They Don't Feel How We Feel For Each Other . I Don't Care What Others May Say , You're Not Distracting Me In My Studies . Don't They Ever Think , If I Want Our Future To Be Good , I'd Work My Ass Off To Make Sure We'd Have A Great Future ? Baby , The Feeling That I Have Right Now , Really Makes Me Happy To Know That I've Got You . Remember The Feeling That I Had When You Accepted Me ? I Never Wanted To Let Go , My Love Was Strong , I'd Miss You Non-Stop . Well Right Now . I Don't Ever Want To Let Go , My Love's Grown Stronger Than Before , I'm Missing You Everyday , I Can't Get You Off My Mind . I Really Feel So Happy That Even My Heart Just Wanna Jump Out . I Just Feel Really Loved By You , Cared By You . You're The Best & The Last Girlf I'm Ever Gonna Have , Cause No One Would Ever Replace You In My Heart . No One Can Make Me Feel The Way You Do For Me . Baby , I Really Love You , 26th ♥

Part 2 Of my Blog Update !

With The Numbers 26 , Lysha Has Randomly Picked Me To Do A 26Question Quiz !

1. Besides your lips, where is your favourite spot to get kiss? /- Shh .

2. How do you feel when you wake up this morning? /- ' Did She Call Me Already ? '

3. Who was the last person you took photo with?/- Jeshereeee♥

4. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled? /- Kind Of .

5. Would you ever donate blood? donate ? /- If It's Really Needed .

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was the opposite sex? /- Yeah .

7. Do you want someone dead? /- YES .

8. What does your last message says? /- ' Hahah, bi dont lidad! I miss you even more can! I love you okeyy? Ltr bath finish then cor u? ' Jeshereeee♥(Shee soooooooooo Cute)

9. What are you thinking right now? /- Jeshereee , Jeshereee , Jeshereee , Jeshereee , Jeshereee♥

10. Do you wish someone to be with you right now? /- Jeshereeee ):

11. What is the time you go to bed last night? /- Around 11+ ?

12. Where did you buy the T-shirt you are wearing now? /- Secondary 1 Class Tee .

13. Is someone on your mind? /- Jeshereee !!!

14. Who was the last person who texted you? /- Jeshereeeeeeee♥ !

Tag 10 random people to do this survey.

1. JESHERE♥

2.Charmaine(AhTall)

3. Glenda

4. Ting Poh

5. XiaoJames

6. Leslie

7. Lina

8. Eugenia

9. Felicia

10. Mr Faiz

16. Who is no. 2 having relationship with? /- She's Single , But Unavailable .

17. Is no. 3 a male or female? /- She's A Pig Attached To A Turkey . LOL.

18. If no. 7 & no. 10 get together, would it be a good thing /- They're The Same Height , Different Age .

19. What is no. 1 studying about? /- Arts (:

20. When was the last time you had a chat with them? /- I Like Chatting With Number 1 :D

21. Is no. 4 single? /- He's Attached .

22. Say something about no. 3 ? /- Pig ♥ Turkey = Chowwwder .

23. What do you think about no. 3 & 5 being together ? /- Good Game . LOL . Turkey Sure Find Him .

24. Describe no. 9. / - I Don't Know . I Choose Her Randomly .

25. What will you do if no. 6 & no. 7 fight? / - I Don't Want To Get Involved .

26. Do you like no. 8? / - She's Cool .

Take Care ,

H-anes.

Tags Replied ;

Clift : Hai Turkey Dad .

Soniyah : Hai Care Teacher :D

Glenda : Shut Up Stupid Pig Mother . Pfft . LOL.

Ahpoh : At Least I Don't Cycle Around Carrying Newspapers . ( Your Horn ) (:

Lyshaa : Done ! Thanks For Asking Me To Do It (:

2009-05-12T05:30:00.000-07:00

Chowdeeeeeeeer.

A young, eccentric child who serves as a chef's apprentice under Mung Daal. Chowder lives with Mung Daal and Mung's wife, Truffles, in a room at the top of the catering business. Chowder wants to become a great chef, but he is very impulsive, and often gives in to his urges. He is always hungry and eats anything, even a customer's order. Chowder can also regurgitate objects, and is used as a storage container by the other characters. Chowder is purple in color. According to Greenblatt, he is a composite of a cat, a bear and a rabbit and his species was verified in at least one episode.
Is He Really Like Me ? & my New Nickname's Chowder .
Take Care ,
H-anes.

Tags Replied ;
Glenda : Duh , I'm Chowder .
Darren : Bigger In Fats Right ? LOL.
Korin : Yah ? o.o
Bella : Hai .

2009-05-10T10:47:00.000-07:00

Wakeboarding Day.Sorry For The Super Late Update , But Here's A Super Long Post ! Alright , I'll Start With :

Saturday , 9 May 2009 .

Woke Up Early In The Morning All Thanks To Mother Cleaning The House . She Was Slamming Things Here & There , But Who Cares . Helped Out With Chores( For The First Time ) & She Reminded Me That We're Going Wakeboarding With Her Working Colleagues . Totally Awsome ! We Left The House Around 2.30 And Had To Be There By 3 . Dad Drove Us To Punggol Where The Boat Was Waiting For Us . Arrived There & I Was Totally Ready For Wakeboarding . It Was My First Time , So I Didn't Expect Much Of Myself . My Mom Passed Me The Sunblock , & Me Being Stupid , Put Too Much Till my Face Was Totally White . But , I Didn't Really Care . We Got On The Boat , & Met Bobby , Our Boat Driver/Instructor . Went Up To Sembawang . Started Our Fun There . The Sun Was Shining So Freaking Birght . But I Was The First . The Told Me What To Do , & I Swear To You It's Fucking Fun ! I Kept On Trying , & Eventually Made It Through ! We Did It For Like 4 Hours , Till The Sun Sets . & I'm Really Telling You That The Scene Was So Nice . I Mean , With The Sun Setting , & The Trees Waving , Wow . Rocked Hard Dude . My Mom Told Me That , We're Gonna Do This Every Month . ( Time To Be A Pro! ) After Heading Back To Land , We Decided To Eat At Jalan Kayu . All Of A Sudden , Dad Calls & Tell Us He's Here To Pick Us Up . All Of Us Was Like , Who Invited Him Here ? HAHA !! But It's True . No One Really Wanted Him To Pick Us Up . Had Our Dinner There , Called Baby After That . Talked Awhile , Headed Home . Took My Shower & Called Her . After That , It's Good Night Singapore .

Show Me Your Teeth !

+ A Happy Mother's Day !

Sunday , 10 May 2009 .

++ Congratulations To Mr & Mrs Chow On Their 1st Month !
Alright People , Mother's Day Was Spent Really Odd This Year . We Went To A Bodyfitness Competition . Woke Up In The Morning & Dad Bought Breakfast . Trainers Were Already At Our Place , So Had To Rush . Took A Fast Shower & Headed To Boat Quay . Did My Stuff & Headed With Family . We Stood At The Entrance For Like , 1 Hour , Cause We Were Waiting For Friends To Come . Bought Our Drinks & Entered . & I Swear To You , I'M NEVER GOING THERE AGAIN . Seriously , It's Freaking BORING . There Were A Couple Of Guys Who Were Freaking Funny . There Was This Guy Who Was Like Posing Like He Had A Freaking Tadpon Right Up His Ass . & That Was The Only Thing Funny . We're Suppose To End Around 6 Plus , But Ended Up Leaving At 7.30 . Went To The Singapore Flyer To Have Our Dinner At Popyes . After Having Dinner , I Went Outside To Talk To Baby , I Miss You . Then Sat Around Awhile & Headed Back . Today Was Really Boring . & Baby Went To Her Aunt's House To Celebrate Mother's Day . Which Is Totally WAY Better Than Going To A Bodybuilding Contest . And To End This Post , A Group Photo !

From Left To Right : Uncle Naz , Aunty Mas , Aunty Nora , Aunty Soffia , Natasha , & Me .

Tags Replied ;

Korin : You're Welcome .

K!riko : Hai Ahcute (:

Namiko : Hai Ahtall .

Glenda : Gnd . Happy 1 Month With Turkey!!(step lion)

2009-05-08T02:28:00.001-07:00

I Couldn't Make You Happy .

I Really Am Sorry For The Couple Of Days , I Guess You're Right . I Can't Blame Anything On You , I Can't Rant My Anger At You . You're My Girlf . I Should Have Treated You With Better Care . You Say I've Changed , I Guess I'm Not In The Wrong To Deny That . But I Really Am Sorry For Venting My Anger , & I Always Say Sorry , But I Don't Do Anything About It . You Must Really Hate Me Right Now . I Don't Blame You . Why Have I Been So Quiet ? I've Always Been , I Enjoy Hearing Everything That Happened Whenever You Got Home & Give Me A Call . You're Not A Toy That I Want To Play With , I Really Take This R/s Seriously , & I Really Really Wanna Do Anything To Make You Happy . But Now That You've Said That , I Feel Really Bad , I Feel Really Guilty . When It Was Always My Fault From The Beginning . I Know Sorry Can't Cure Anything . But I'd Do Anything Just To Get You Back Here . I'd Do Anything To Make You Happy . You Love This Picture Don't You ? It Was The First Picture We Took . I Really Am Sorry Baby .. Hai , Please Tell Me What I Can Do . Cause I'm Really Going To Try My Best . But I Need You To Share With Me Everything That's On Your Mind . All The Promises You Keep , Do You Keep Your Words ? I Know That I Never Did Keep My Word . But Do You Feel How Hard I'm Trying To Let You Know That I Want You To Think Of Me As Not Just Another Guy , But Your Boyf , A Different Guy . I Don't Want To Be Like Your Dad , My Dad , Or Any Other Guy . I Want You Be Yours & Only Yours . I Really Don't Know What I Can Do After You Said All That . I Guess I Kept Quiet , Cause I Didn't Enjoy My Whole Day . I Know I'm A Horrible Boyf . & I'm Sorry ..

2009-05-07T02:24:00.000-07:00

You're Not That Big .

Todays Topic : People Who Act As Gangsters . (Leslie Should Know Who I'm Refering To. )

Okay , If You're That BIG That You Think Everyone Around You Is Scared , Cause You 'Know People' . I'll Tell You What , If You're Really That Big , Why Don't You Fucking Settle Your Problems Yourself Instead Of Calling People . Unless You Know You're At Fault , Either That Or You're Just Plain Scared Of Getting Hurt . You Scared What , Your Reputation As A Gangster Drop ? People See You Small Also Not Say They WANT Tio You . Who Asked You To Do Something They Don't Like ? Geez . Every Problem I've Been To , People Are Called Down , & Yah , I Admit . I Do Call People Down Also , But When I Know I'm Seriously Not At Fault . But You're Being An Idiot , Going Around Class , Hitting People , You Surround Yourself With People Who Are Weaker Than You & Hit Them ? You Tell Them What , 'No Kick!' You Think You Hit Painful Is It ? You're Lame . You Want To Be The Biggest , What , Tao Ah . I'm Not Saying That I'm A Gangster Or What , But Seriously . Go Think About It . Cause To Me , You're Just Someone Who Thinks He's Big , Cause Friend Know Friend Got Brother Got Brother Got Friend Got Brother . Know Alot People Dosen't Make You Big Alright . You Think You So Big , Go Make Taiji With People Older Than You La . Or You Too Hum To Do That ? & I'm Not Trying To Offend Anyone , But This Is My Point . So Sorry If I Offended Anyone . & To You Fuckface , Fuck Off .

Take Care ,

H-anes.

Tags Replied ;

Amanda: Haha , Wish You The Same As Well . (:

LCZD~: Shit Man , It's Dropped To Orange , Or Dk What But That Sucks !

Hazmi: Haha , Thanks Dude . Take Care .

2009-05-06T05:28:00.000-07:00

Now Who's The Greatest Sin ?

School Was Boring As Usual , Didn't Really Have Fun In School . My Tooth Keeps Hurting , !@#$ . I'm Really Gonna Find A Way To Stop The Pain . & I'm Not Going To The Dentist ! The Freaking Smell Of It Really Just Gives Me The Goosebums . Exams Are In 2 Days , Gonna Have My English Paper 2 & Social Studies . I Hope I Really Can Pass Both This Subjects , And I'm Willing To Do Anything Just So I'll Pass . People , Wish Me Luck . I've Still Got So MANY THINGS TO DO . I've Got My FnN Coursework , Upcoming Papers & My Freaking Tooth . I've Noticed That I Haven't Been Contacting People Lately & I'm Sorry ! I'm Really Busy & I Don't Even Have The Time To Focus . I'm Like Exhausted Everyday , Come Home . Tired . But I Still Try My Best To Stay Awake . I Think I'm Gonna Sleep Early Tonight . After I Talk On The Phone , Then G'night Singapore ! & Yay For Swine Flu In Red Colour Alr ! NO NEED GO SCHOOOL !!!! But Why Am I Going To School Tomorrow ? Fuck That k . & I Really Really Really Really Really Really Want To Meet Bi , How Long Have I Not Seen You ?! Geez . ):

I MISS YOU !

Take Care ,

H-anes.

Tags Replied ;

Namiko : HiHi AhTall .

Korin : You're Welcome .

Lyshaaaa! : Thank You For Tagging !

LCZD~ : Aiseh , Happy Sia . lol .

Glenda : Dimwit Oh Dimwit . Where You Going Now ? lol.

Amanda : HI ! lol.

2009-05-05T05:12:00.000-07:00

You Stole My Heart & You Kicked Me Aside .

Hello Daily Readers , Or New Readers . My Moods Not Really Thumbs Up . Firstly , My Tooth's Been Aching Since Yesterday . Teachers Are Giving They're Attitudes All Around . & I Don't Wanna Do My Exams Anymore . I Don't Feel A WANT To . Fogging Up My Whole Room With Songs That Keeps Me In This Low Mood , I Don't Feel Like Cheering Up . & I Don't Harm Anyone When I'm Sad . I Just . Reply Less ? Damnnn . Someone Cheer Me Up Without Asking Me To Relex , Or To Smile . Cause I'll Seriously Kick Your Face . School Sucked , So That's Normal . Teachers Didn't Come , So I Walked Around The School Without A Aim , Got Questioned Why I Kept Waking Around , & I Replied , ' I've Got Nothing Better To Do ' . Fact Is , I Really Got Nothing To Do . What You Expect Me To Do ? Revise My Studies ? I'm Not A Stupid School Student . I'd Rather Walk Around Than Study . You Know What . I Don't Really Feel Like Posting Anymore . If I Did , You'd All Know My Whole Life , & I'm Not Going To Do That . Baby , I Miss You .. :/
Take Care ,
H-anes.

Tags Replied ;

Korin : Linked .

2009-05-04T09:22:00.000-07:00

Was It You ?

Forget It . No MIA . Updates Are Backing Up .

Sorry People For The Misunderstanding . I Don't Think I'll MIA From My Blog . I've Got Too Many Readers & I Wanna Keep It That Way . About Today , Didn't Really Do Much , As Usual . It's Like Any Other Normal Day . Rot , Nag , Rot , Nag , Rot Nag . I'm Telling You , I Can't Wait For The Stupid Swine Flu To Get To Red . Then We Won't Have To Go To School . & You Know What . This Flu Thing . Reminds Me Of Heros . When Peter Goes To The Future , & Everyone Dies Due To The Disease In New York . Are We All Gonna Die ? I Don't Want To . I Haven't Got The Chance To Exprience Anything 'Eye-Opening' Yet . I Find Myself Bored At Home Day By Day . Getting Used To Things Is Something I Really Don't Like . Cause , You Get Bored Of It . Repeating What You Did Yesterday Over & Over Again . That Sucks , Right ? Anway , I Tried To Look For Amanda Today . I Don't Know If I Did See Her Anot . I'm Still Unsure . I Kept Waking By Her Class . & I Keep Seeing Jolene . Well , Better Luck Tomorrow Then . & I'll Be Replying My Tags In My Post Yeah . NOTE TO READERS : Do Tag , If I Find My Blog Inactive . Then I'll Stop My Postings .
Take Care ,

H-anes.

Tags Replied :

Germaine! : Hello (:

So Long .

2009-05-03T06:39:00.000-07:00

So Long Daily Readers ; MIA !

What's Up Daily Readers , This Is Just An Update Saying That I WILL NOT BE UPDATING MY BLOG TILL EXAMS ARE OVERR !! Sadly , I'm Not Allowed To Use The Computer Till Exams Are Over . But I'll Try My Best To Update . I Know How Much You Need To Know My Life Right Kpohs ? Anways .

HANES SHALL MIA FROM HIS BLOG TILL : 12 May '09

Take Care Alright ? Do Keep Your Daily Check . I Might Just Update Abit .

H-anes.

Opinions People!

2009-05-03T00:44:00.000-07:00

It's Time For A Debate .

Tag At My Tagboard For Your Opinion !!!!

Here's My Update ! Alright , Yesterday . Didn't Have Training Cause Trainer Came At Around 9pm-10pm+ ? Bummer Eh . Was Really Excited To Start Training . & My Next Training's Next Week ! Today . My Mom Cooked Lunch ! & There's Fish , I Heard Someone Can't Eat Fish Cause She Pierced Her Smiley . HAH! I Hope Baby's Doing Okay , She's Been Under Loads Of Stress Rushing Through Everything . Bi , Don't Worry . You'll Do Well . You Chiong Everything Later In The End You Forget How ._. (Touchwood!) & I Need To Start Studying Also ! Everyone's Under Alot Of Stress Aye ? Mother Under Stress , Sister Under Stress , Dad Also Under Stress . Then Me ? Taking Things So 'Relek Only' . But Hey . That's Me .(I Mean The Typical Me) Hanes Wants To Put In Effort In Studies , You Tell Me How ? IT'S FREAKING BORING . Geez . If They Made It More Interesting . We'd Be Getting Straight A's . If The 'BOOKS' Haven't Work For The Last 5468761321687644213 Years , Start Doing A Different Approach Goondus ! The Only Interesting Lesson I've Got In School Is Youth Power . WE ENJOY ! WE LEARN THINGS ! Unlike Maths . Being Nagged By A Gay Teacher ( No Offence , You're Just Acting That Way) . Time For A Change People . WAKE UP WAKE UP WAKE UP !@#$ !!!!

Take Care ,

H-anes.

Take On Me .

2009-05-02T02:25:00.000-07:00

It's The Way You Do It , Not How You Do It .

A Quick Update Before I Go For My Training . I've Been Having An Addiction Of Watching People Fight . Been Watching UFC Lately , & I've Decided To Pick Up Muay Thai . Not That I'm Going To Beat Up Anyone , But Learn Just For .. Maybe Self-Defence ? Maybe That's Gonna Be My New Sport . Muay Thai . That's Gonna Be So Cool . Anyway , Didn't Do Much Today . Basically , I Do What I Do Every Other Weekend . Just Wake Up , Shower , Listen To Music , & Play The Comp If I Get The Chance To . Anyway , I've Gotta Go Already . Maybe I'll Update Tomorrow . If I've Got Any Readers .
Take Care ,
H-anes. & Oh , To That Babe , I Miss You Too ! ♥ Please Please Meet Me Soon ! ):

Studies On Lockdown .

2009-05-01T09:49:00.000-07:00

STUDIES ON LOCKDOWN.

Oh Great , Mid-Years Are HERE .

Time To Study.. YEAH RIGHT.

It's Gonna Be Havock With Mid-Years Around . It's Gonna Be Pure Studies(Maybe With A Pinch of Slacking) But I Really Got To Do Well For This . If I Don't Do Well , You Won't See Me Anymore . Damn , Seriously No Comment . Lately I've Been Exhausted , Having The Want To Sleep And Just Not Wake Up . I Mean , Take A Look At My Eyebags Man . Betcha You've Never Seen Mine . Triple Eyebags . Why You'd Think My Nickname's Panda ? Haven't Been updating Much , & I'm Sorry ! I Only Get To Use The Computer On Weekends . Wait . Do I Even Have Any Readers ?! Nah , It's Okay . I Don't Really Care Anyway . Didn't Do Much Today . Just , ROT , ROT , ROT , ROT & ROT . It's Exams & I'm Not Even Worried ? What The !@#$ 's Wrong With Me ? Okay . From Today Onwards , HANES Is Gonna Study & Work His Ass Off ! (I Hope I Can) With That , I'll Leave You Hanging Here .

Take Care ,

H-anes.

Happy 8th Months . Me & You .

2009-04-26T00:04:00.000-07:00

Happy 8 Months Baby , & It's Raining .

Sorry I'm Not There For You . Hope You're Okay , Cause You Sound Sad On The Phone .
We haven't Got Time To Spend With Each Other . I've Got This Feeling You're Ignoring Me ,
This Feeling Somethings Wrong . Hope You Tell Me What's On Your Mind & Not ;
I'm Fine , Nothing's Wrong . When I Can Tell There Is . 8 Months We've Been Together .
I Love You To The Depths Of The Sea . I Never Thought That Our 8 Month Would Be So Dull .
I Didn't Get Your Phone Call In The Morning , I Didn't Get To Hear Any Word About How Special Today Was .
But I Don't Blame You . I Never Blamed You For Anything . I'm Just Happy You're Still Here With Me .
I Didn't Get To Hear Your Voice , You're So Busy Today With Work . But It's Not Your Fault . I'm Waiting For Your Call .
I Hope You Enjoy The Rest Of What's Left Of Today . My Feelings Never Fade , It's True .
Darling , I Love You ...

A Couple Of Years To Catch Up .

2009-04-25T01:17:00.000-07:00

HANES IS TRYING TO FIND A GIRL .
Her Name's Lye Qin Ting . & Her Brother's Name Is Lye Han Bin ._.
Okay . Er , The Only Thing I Know About Han Bin Is That He Was From Elias Park Primary & He's 18 Or 17 not sure , First Year In Poly / Jc / Ite This Year . If You Know Him / Her . Please Please Tag Me Or TELL ME IN ANYWAY POSSIBLE .

Closing Ceremony .

2009-04-10T01:20:00.000-07:00

There Is An Engine In My Body , With Every Beat It Lets Me Breathe . If I Could Keep Up With That Machine That's In My Body , I Could Do Anything , Be Anything , See anything . If I keep Up With It Could I Catch Myself ? Chains and stripes , I'm Not Gonna Sleep Tonight . This Is No Way For A Man To Live His Life ; Paranoid On The Prison-Yard Pavement , For The First Time . No One Is Harder Than Myself , Or So It Seems . And Some Say That You're My Curse , My Own Worst Enemy , I Think They're Wrong . I Don't Need Anyone's Help , Or So It Seems . You Changed Me For The Good , They Never Understood . But Even If They Try I Doubth They Could . So Take My Nervous Hands , & Take A Stand . Cause We Don't Have To Live Under Their Demands . When I'm With You There's No Worries . When I'm With You There's No Shame . When I'm With You I'm Secure . We Choose To Live Against The Grain . They Can Say We lack The Progress , They Can Say That We're A Mess , They can say we'll never make it , But I Know We're Better Than Their Test . & I Don't Hear Them Anyway . I've Been Blinking , You've Been Thinking , Where Does That Leave Us Now ? I'm Gonna Make Sure This Is Better Than Before . I'm Gonna Get Through You .

Back To Basics , Face The Music .

2009-04-06T18:44:00.000-07:00

HANES IS GONNA BE GONE k .

I Won't Be Answering Any Phone Calls & Sms-es Unless I Really Need To Talk To Someone . I'm Just Gonna Disappear . I'm Unworth Hurting Anyone , & If You Think I Never Hurt You , There's Always At Least Once That I've Did . I Don't Know What You Think Of Me Anymore . But I Really Enjoyed All My Time With My Friends , Even If I Never Met You . I Treasure Our Friendship . But I'm Sorry I Made Things Turn Out This Way . Do Take Care , Friend . Whoever You Are , Even If You're Reading This . It's Nice To Know That You Once Cared .. If You Feel The Need To Talk To Me , Then Sms Me , Tell Me You Really Want To Talk To Me , But Don't Expect Me To Give You An Answer , Or Even Talk Alot . I'm Sorry I've Made Things Turn Out This Way .

I Give Up ..

Seems Unreal .

2009-03-21T01:19:00.000-07:00

Earthlings , What's Going On On This Rainy Evening ?
Today's No Different From The Other Days . It's Been Damn Fucked Up For Me .
I'm Not Gonna Post My Problems Here . But I Am Going To Tell You That Things Are Getting Worst & Worst , Not Only With My Family . Everything . But You Know What , I'm Trying To Control My Temper , I'm Not Gonna Raise My Voice , I'm Not Going To Care , What You Wanna Do , Then Just Do It . You Want Me To Do It For You Then Fine . You Know What . I'm Sick About All This Shit Going On Around . I'm Just Going To Act Normal , & NOTHING's WRONG . Don't Worry Bout Me , Afterall , I'm Just A Waste Of Time , A Boy Who Just Makes Things Worst , So We'll See What Happens .
SUA .

All Fuck The Father In Law .

2009-03-19T04:53:00.000-07:00

You Know What ? I'm Fucking Pissed Right Now .
& You Know Why ? Cause Some People In This Fucking World Don't Even Know How To Sort Out Good & Bad People . If You're In A Room And You Got 2 Dumb Idiots Shouting , Obviously The 3rd Party Is Asking Them To Shut Up Right ? Dosen't Mean That You're Their Dad Makes You Able To Wack Them Whenever You Get Damn Angry . You Know How Fucking Irritating It Is Everytime You Wack Her ? It Makes Me Want To Wack You Harder Than You Ever Expected . You Want To Hit Also Must Hit At Head ? WITH A DAMN BAMBOO STICK . You Fucking Retarded Or Simply Just Metta-like ? She's Not A Damn Toy Or A Damn Punching Bag For You To Hit Whenever You Feel Like . You Seriously Got Me On My Last Nerve . Get Your Fucking Brain Working Before I Make It Work For You .She's In The Right Asking Them To Shut Up , You Hit Her . Whenever She Does Something Good , Praise Her . Not Go Ahead & Fucking Hit Her . Seriously , You've Always Been On My Nerve . If You Hit her One More Time . ONE MORE TIME . I Swear I'll Go And Settle Things Out With You . You Maybe Older Than Me , But I Don't Give A Damn Fuck . You Think Just Cause You're Her Dad I Can't Do Anything About It ? Just Watch Me . I'm Capable Of Doing More Things Than You Ever Expected . Everyone Knows Me Well Enough , You Insult , Hurt , Disturb , Bully My Girlf . You've Crossed The Line , I'll Make Sure You're Gonna Regret Whatever Fucking Thing You've Done To Her . Anyone Who Lays A Damn Finger On Her , I'll Seriously Settle Things Out With You . I'm Not Posting Myself As A Threat For You Dumbasses Who Think That Way .
Watch Out For Me , Cause I'm Gonna Give You The Hell You Never Wanted / To See .

Rain In Hell .

2009-03-19T01:10:00.000-07:00

Welcome Back To My Blog Readers .
Haven't Done Much Today .
Wanted To Meet Bibi Today , But Her Parents Didn't Allow . (Sad)
But It's Alright . I Don't Mind .
Woke Up , & I Found Out My Sister Friend Came Over To Watch Movie .
Ignored Everyone . Just Got On The Computer & I Found Out That I've Got Nothing To Do .
I Haven't Heard Bibi's Voice One Whole Day , & That Sucks .
I Need To Hear Her Voice ! It's Means Alot To Me Alright ?!
But She's Busy , So I Understand !
Been Listening To Songs That I Normally Didn't Listen To .
I've Been Seriously Random These Days . Is That Just Me Or Is That Just Me Being Weird ?
Aww Man , I Don't Know . At Least Today's Better Than Yesterday ( But I Didn't Get To Hear Her Voice * Crap )
& That's About A Wrap Here .
Till My Next Post , Take Care & Goodbye .

The Technicolor Phase

2009-03-18T02:40:00.000-07:00

Hello Awaked Evening People .
It's Gonna Be A Short Post Today , Going To Leave & Pick Up My Mom .
Haven't Been Doing Much Today .
Couldn't Pick Bibi Up Today . ( SORRY )
Woke Up , & As Per Normal , There's No Food . So I Just Made Bread . Whoopie .
What have You Been Up To ?
Been Asking Bibi Questions That Just Went On My Mind .
You Could Say I Was ' Sorting Thing Out With Her ' .
Well , I Just Wanted To Know Where We Were In Our Relationship .
& Yes I Do Want To Spend Every Single Moment I Can With Her , Every Second .
But I Want Her To Be Happy Always Alright ?
I Don't Really Have Much To Say Bout Today .
2 Words . NOTHING HAPPENED .
Well , That's What I Can Say For Now , I Mean , My Days Not Over Yet .
Take Care .

Hear Me As I Am .

2009-03-15T06:36:00.000-07:00

Hello Planet Earth .
I'm Back To Blogging And Yes I Really Mean That I Am .
So You Idiots , Keep Reading .
I've Found Out That I Don't Really Do Much In My Life ,
& Yet Me Myself Know I'm Enjoying It . I've Got Jeshere .
What Eles Do I Need ?
It's The One Week Break Of Holidays , & Yet , Why Does It Seem Like It's Not Going To Really Be A Holiday For Me ? Surely I Know For Sure That I'm Gonna Be At Home Rotting Day & Day .
But Hey , At Least I've Got Someone To Talk To .
Seriously , No One Know's How I Feel For Jeshere , You May Think That I'm Young Or Whatever , But Also Please Do Understand That I'm The One With The Feelings ,
I'm Not Going To Let Anything Happen To Her Or Let You Do Anything About Us .
I Believe In This Relationship .
My Birthday's Coming ! & I'M NOT SURE IF I'M EXCITED .
Reasons Here & There . But I Understand Reasons .
So I Don't Need You To Say Sorry Alright ? I'll Spend My Time With You (WOOHOO !)
Didn't Really Do Much Today , Been Rotting At Home . & FINALLY I'm Using The Comp .
& I'm Gonna Be Updating Quite Often . I Hope .
No Promises Alright ?
& To Jeshere ,
I Do Want You To Take Care Of Yourself Alright ? Cause Every Moment I Spent With You Means Alot To Me , If Anyone Want Me To Apart From You , I'm Not Letting Them Do Anything That Would Make Me Apart From You . Cause My Love For You Can't Fade .
So What Makes You Think I'd Ever Want To Lose You ? (: My Love For You Is Pure , Whoever Wants To Say That We're Young , Honestly , Fuck Them , They Don't Feel The Way I Do For You , Or You Do For Me . So They Can't Judge Us . Bottomline , I LOVE YOU ♥
Hanes & Jeshere , Since 26th Aug 2008 .

The Girl I Love .

2009-02-15T05:03:00.001-08:00

Je Vous Aime JESHERE LIM .

(that's French)

Re-live What You Wanted To Do .

2009-02-14T19:15:00.000-08:00

Sorry For Not Even One Update In The Past Couple Of Months .
Things Aren't Going As I Thought It Would .
Don't Wanna Talk About It .
I'll Be Blogging Often When I Get To Use The Comp ( Rarely )
Anways ,
11 Days To Go For Our 6th Months .
It's Gonna Be Like A Food Festivel .
& Baby , No Matter How Suck-ish I Can Be ,
I Do Love You & You Know Right ?
I'll Always Want To Spend My Times With You .
And Again , Sorry :{

I'm Yours , You're Mine .

2008-12-27T13:55:00.000-08:00

It's A Day After Our 4th Month ,

& Things Seems To Be Looking Better Than Before .

Baby , Just Keep In Mind That I'm Always Thinking About You .

Anyone Who Wants To Give A Shit About What We Share ,

That's Their Problem That They Want To Care So Much .

They're Jealous .

Cause I've Go The Best Damn Thing That Anyone Could Ask For .

Don't Ever Think That I'd Wanna Lose You .

Cause It Really Hurts Me To Ever Let Go Of You .

& I Don't Think I Can .

Any Guy Could Say That They Love You .

But I Really Mean It When I Say , " Jeshere , I Love You . "

& I've Loved You Without A Doubt .

We've Been Through Many Things Together .

But Know That I'll Always Be There For You Whenever .

When You're Sad , I'll Be Sad With You .
When You're High , I'll Be High With You .

When You're Angry , I'll Be Angry .

With You I Hold A Different Feeling .

A Feeling Even Me Myself Could Make Me Happy Always .

Just Think For A Second , If You Were Not Here With Me Now ,

I'd Be Sad All The Time .

But At Least I've Got You To Cheer Me Up Whenever I'm Down .

& I'll Do The Same For You .

I'd Do Anything For You .

As Long As You're Happy .

I'll Do It .

You May Say You're Not Good Enough For Me ,

You're Right , You're The Perfect Girlf I Could Always Be With .

You Don't See It , But I Do .

I May Be The Worst Boyf ,

But I'd Do Anything To Be The Boyf You've Always Wanted .

Jeshere , I Love You & I Really Do .

J-E-S-H-E-R-E , Happy 4th Month♥

2008-12-25T16:15:00.000-08:00

Two-Six-Oh-Eight-Oh-Eight ,
HAPPY 4th MONTH BEBEE (:
Told You I'd Be Your Longest !
After All The Sadness Or Hard Times We've Brought On Each Other ,
We Still Managed To Pull Things Together & Go Through It .
After Every Month , We Start A New Chapter .
But Chapter 3 Was A Bad One .
& I'm Sorry .
But Don't Worry Alright ?
We've Still Got 4th Month , 5th , 6th , 7th , 8th , 9th , 1 Year & More .
We're Starting A New Chapter , So We'll Start Fresh . (:
Hope You're Gonna Have Fun At Your Bbq Later On When I See You .
I Miss You Soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo Much . (:
See You Later Alright ?
I'm Going To Shower & Get Ready . (:
Muahs Bebee (:

Uhh , Is Xmas Over Already ?

2008-12-24T13:03:00.000-08:00

Okay People !
Firstly ,
Merry Xmas To You People Hoping For Presents .
Honestly ,
I'm Rather Not Interested In Xmas Like I Used To .
Now It All Seems So Unrealistic .
Like , It's Just A Waste Of Time Getting Together ,
Exchanging Presents .
I Mean , I Know I'm Gonna Celebrate It On The 26th .
But I'm More Looking Foward To Meeting W-I-F-E-Y

I'm Rather In A LOVE MOOD :o.
& Our 4th Month .
I Mean , That Is A Good Thing Right ?
Anyway ,
I'm In A Good Mood , Bad Mood , Worried Mood .
This Is So Seriously Fucked Up .
Good Mood Cause I Get To See YOU Tomorrow !! (:
Bad & Worried Cause Something Went Wrong .
Ask Me & I'll Break Your Balls .
I'd Rather Express A Happy Thought Than A Negetive Thought .
Why Be All Fucked Up ?
Waste Of My Own Time To Be Honest .
I Need To Talk To My Step Brother Again . :/
He's Like My Mentor .
I Don't Think I'd Like To Write Anymore .
So ,
MERRY XMAS TO ALL YOU BITCHES OUT THERE ! (:

Another Heart Calls .

2008-12-20T14:38:00.000-08:00

Hi .
I Won't Be Updating Much .
Apologies .
Will Try To Update Soon .
Anyway ,
Will Be Enjoying Myself Next Pass Few Days .
Esp 26 (:
I Love You Bebee .
Muahs .
Whoo .
4th Month .
Have You Lasted That Long With My Girlf ? (:
Nope !
I'm The First :B
I Hart Jeshere ! ♥

This Could Be The Real World .

2008-12-14T20:01:00.000-08:00

Sorry For The Late Update .
Anway ,
I Don't Think I'll Be Updating So Often .
I Don't Really Get To Use The Comp Often .
& I've Found Out That I Don't Really Bother Bout Going Online .
Don't Ask .
Talked To My Step Brother Yesterday .
Well ,
All I Can Say Is After What He's Said .
I See Things Better .
& I Recently Found Out That There's A FUCKER Copying All My Words :0
I Hart Jeshere .
HART / HEART Is My Thing .
You Fuck Off .
Don't Be A Dog & Copy Me . (:
_l_ :000000
Anyway .
Small Thing .
Don't Care .
Can't Wait For 26 26 26 26 26 26 26 26 26 . (:

Digital Nightfall .

2008-11-28T05:05:00.000-08:00

Alrighty .
Sorry For The Late Update .
Well , It's My 3rd Month With JESHERE :0
Ahaaha .
Bought Her The Sims 2 For Her .
Since She Loves Playing It .
Now She's Hooked On To It !
Ahaha .
Happy She Enjoys It (:
Nothing Much Been Happening These Past Few Days .
Been Slacking At Home Till Death .

Hanes Is Going For A 70s All Retro Party Tomorrow .

This Is Gonna Be So Lame & Yet It's Fun .

But If Bebee Was There ,

That Would Be So Cool . ( THE BEST THING EVER )

But It's Alright .

As Long As I Get To See Her More Often

& Talk More , That's All Good For Me . (:

Although There's Alot Of Things Going On ,

Bebee , I Wanna Make Things Better For Us (:

Things Are Gonna Change From Now Alright ?

Can't Wait To See You Again .

& Our 4th Month :D

I Love You & I'll Say It Till I Die .

In Over My Head .

2008-11-19T03:46:00.000-08:00

Knn . You Think You What Fuck ?
Must Scold Malay Dogs Ah ?
You Then Dog Ah .
Knn .You What ? Rasist Ah ?
Nb . I Thought You Got Friends Can Track People IP ? Why Never Track ? Must Ask Them Find You ? You Not That Big To Ask People Find You La Knn . Your Mouth Can Don't Open Big Big Or Not . You Got Brothers All This I Also Got La . You Want Scold Don't So Lame La . Anyhow Say Malay Dog For What . You Yourself Also Dog Right ? Lame Fuck .

Damn ,
I've Got Too Many Things Going On In My Mind . :/
No Matter How Hard I Try To Get It Off .
It Keeps Stepping On Me .
How Do You Keep The Thought Of Something So ..
I Don't Know How To Explain .
It's The Same As : You've Got 3 apple .
A Rotten Apple , A Perfect Apple , & A Almost Riped Apple .
Everyone Goes For The Perfect Apple .
But Ignores The Rotten One . :/
Forget It . There's No Relevence With Whats On My Mind .
Fucked Up .
Damn It .
I've Got No Mood .
Woke Up With My Body Aching .
Felt Damn Weak .
I Don't Bother Bout Myself .
I Rate This Day : 1 / 10 :/
sigh , what's going on with me ?

Roses Smile Like Youuuu-Ou-U .

2008-11-16T01:40:00.000-08:00

I Miss Jeshereeeeee ):
I Wanna See Her Soon Alright .
Didn't Do Much Today .
Bored To Death At Home .
Someone Entertain Me Pleaseeeeee (:

Little Kids With Their Soft Toys .

2008-11-14T15:58:00.000-08:00

Alright .
I've Finally Updated .
That's Good I Guess .
Anway I'm No So Sure If There's Any Readers In My Blog .
But If There Is ,
Hello (:
I've Been Spending My Past Few Days Doing Nothing .
Been Going Out With Jeshere .
Doing Our Little Sneeks Here & There .
There's Not Much To Write About .
But It's Better Then Not Updating I Guess .
Anways .
I'm Missing Her Alot .
Worring Bout Her Too .
She's Not Been Herself Lately These Past Few Days . :0
Baby , Do Take Care Alright ?
I Love You (:
I'm Counting The Days To Our 3rd Month . (:
ElevenDays .

Nightfall & Shooting Stars

2008-10-26T11:34:00.000-07:00

Happy Second Month Jeshere Lim (:

I Hart You ♥

For The Past 2 Months That I've Shared With You ,
I've Treasured Every Single Moment , Second With You .
I'm Never Gonna Forget The Times We've Spent .
All The Sneeking In , All The Laughter , All The Smiles , & The Metta Times .
Whenever I Was Down , You'd Always Be There Worrying .
& I Kinda Feel Bad For Making You Worry So Much .
2 Whole Months With You , & We've Never Fought .
What We Share , The Feeling We Have , Is Just So AMAZING .
Amazing For A Guy Like Me To Have A Girlf Like You .
Is Like Not Having You Would Be Like Playing A Guitar Without It's Strings .
It Would Be Usless To Play A Guitar Without Strings .
You're Everything To Me .
You're The Reason I Have To Wake Up Another Day .
The Reason Why I Smile Everyday .
You Make All My Problems Seem Like Nothing .
I Know There Were Times Where I Worry Too Much ,
But I Do Worry Bout You No Matter What .
There Were Times When You Were Angry At Your Brother .
But Don't Get Angry Anymore Alright ?
Even If You Were Angry , I Want You To Vain Your Anger At Me .
Cause After That You Won't Be Angry Already .
I've Never Regreted This Relationship & Never Doubted It A Second .
I Know We'll Be Able To Last Longer Than 2 Months .
( Eventhough People Say We Look Like We've Been Together For More Than That )
I'd Be Anything You Want Me To Be , Anything You Hoped For .
Just Guide Me Through This Relationship .
If You Had Ever Felt Any Doubts In My Love For You , Tell Me .
We Won't Last If I Do This Alone .
I Need You , 2 Hearts Can Make This Last .
Mine & Yours , No One Eles .
I'll Make Everyone Know That We'll Last An Eternity .
And That's Possible , Don't Ever Think It's Not .
For I Take This Vow To You Jeshere Lim ,

To Death Do Us Part ,

I Shall Love You .
Happy Second Monthsary Baby (:
I Love You ♥

H-anes.

Daydreams & Nightmares .

2008-10-24T09:21:00.000-07:00

Have You Ever Just Sat Down ,
Stared At Your Handphone Hoping It Would Ring .
Hoping That He / She Would Call You Back .
& Fix What's The Problem .
Just Right After You Felt You Did Something Wrong Or Even Something Bad That Happened ?
Sometimes , Nothing Really Happened .
You Were Just Thinking Too Much That It Felt So Real , Like He / She Was Really Angry / Sad .
I Mean .
Sometimes You Won't Know If You Did Anything Or Wrong .
But I'm Always Getting The Thought I Did Something Wrong When Someone's Sad .
Esp. To Jeshere .
I Care For Her Alot .
& I'd Never Wanna Lose Her ,
Cause I Don't Think I'd Be This Happy Without Her .
She Puts A Smile On My Face ,
& Even When She Can't .
She'd Always Try .
& I'm Really Thankful Having Her In My Life .
I Know Sometimes I'm Just Thinking Too Much .
But I Can't Stop Myself .
If My Days Don't End Well .
I Won't Be Able To Sleep .
I'd Think , Where Did I Go Wrong .
But It Just Keeps Me Up All Night .
Sometimes , I Just Wish I Knew What Was On Your Mind .
Eventhough I Know How Much You Care For Me .
I've Never Doubted A Single Thing .
We've Never Fought , But Sometimes I Feel That I've Hurt You .
& When I Ask You What's Wrong , You Reply , ' Nothing ' .
Which Makes Me Feel Untrue .
Cause Your Voice Tone & Your Reply , Make It Seem Like ,
There Is Something Bothering You .
I Know That I'm Thinking Too Much .
But I Just Can't Stop Thinking .
I Do Trust You .
But It's Just That When Something's Really Wrong & You Say You're Okay .
It Makes Me Worry More Bout You .
I'm Always Worrying Bout You .
That's How I Show How Much I Care About You .
The Thought Of You Is Always On My Mind .
If There's Something Wrong , Please Don't Say That There's Nothing Wrong .

H-anes.

View From Heaven .

2008-10-22T23:21:00.000-07:00

Not Gonna Do Anything To Day .
I've Got No Fucking Mood .
So Don't Disturb Me If You See Me Online Or Whatever .
Unless You've Got Something To Make Sence To Talk About .
Fucking Pissed Off With My Exams .
The Way That Fucking Teacher Wrote His Comments On My Report Book .
Fucking Go To Hell Man .
No Mood .

Baby , I Miss You ):
H-anes.

Sunsets & Car Crashes .

2008-10-21T11:00:00.000-07:00

Sorry For Not Updating .
Was Busy Enjoying My Life With Jesheree Around . (:
Been Meeting Her Often This Week .
& Yes ,
That's A Good Thing .
We've Got This New Habbit .
Breaking Into Houses .
She's Got Alot Of Stuff Going Through Her Mind Now ,
& You Won't Retain Alright !
Now I Got The Thought I'm Going To Retain .
If I Retain ,
How ? Surely Die .
Anyway ,
Who Knows What Gonna Happen .
I'll Just Wait .

Baby ,
Thank You For The Offline message . (:
It Really Made Me Happy That When You Were Tired You'd Sleep .
Sorry I Came Online So Late . ):
Sister Was Hogging The Computer Till 2am .
I Felt Kinda Bad Making You Wait For Me :{
Dui Bu Qi !
I Know You Don't Want Me To Feel That Way .
& I Know It's Kinda Late ,
But : Goodnight , Sleep Tight , Sweetest Dreams , Take Care .
I Love You (:
4 Days Baby (:
I Hart You ♥

H-anes.

We Laugh , We Dance , We Break Into Houses .

2008-10-19T23:40:00.000-07:00

The Night I Stared At You ,
Your Eyes Were Glowing In The Dark .
Your Eyes Were Glowing So Brightly .
It Felt So Good Having You Beside Me .
It's Like I Haven't Seen You In Ages .
With You There's No Problems .
You Make Problems Seem So Small .
Your Laughter Was So Sweet To Hear .
Your Smile Was The Sweetest Thing To See .
Seeing You Smile That Way Made Me Happy .
That Told Me That You Won't Be Sad Anymore .
The Thought Of You ,
Your Face Pictured In My Mind .
Makes Me Smile .
I'm Thinking About You Always .
There's Never Gonna Be A Reason That I'd Wanna Lose You .
Jeshere ,
I Love You ♥ ; 26.08.08

You Stand , Watching .

2008-10-18T02:39:00.000-07:00

Congratulations To The 60th Post .
I Think My Blog's Dead ,
Only 1-5 People Read It .
But Do Tag .
Not Much Of A Big Deal .
I'm Bored At Home .
Everyone's Bugging Me When I'm At Home .
I Don't Even Know What To Do At Home .
I've Got Nothing To Do When I'm At Home .
While Everyone Get's To Go Out .
I'm Stuck At Home .
Damn .
Using The Computer Day By Day ,
It Gets Kinda Bored Okay .
Looking Foward To Monday . (:
Just Going To Post Few Music Videos .
Maybe Some Of The Videos Would Make Sence ? (:
It's Up To You .

The Spill Canvas - All Over You .

We The Kings - Skyway Avenue

All Time Low - Six Feet Under The Stars .

H-anes.

It's Like I Wrote Every Note With My Own Fingers .

2008-10-16T19:53:00.000-07:00

Baby ,
It's Okayy .
I Know Why You're Sad .
There Seem To Be So Many Things Bothering You That I Feel Bad Myself .
Cause I Can't Do Anything To Help .
I Want You To Be Smiling Always .
Even If You Can't .
Just Try Okay ?
Don't Think So Much .
You Know I'm Always Going To Be There For You .
24/7 (:
Remember What We Both Said ?
" Whenever You're Down , I'll Be There For You "
& I Promise That To You (:
So ,
I'm There Whenever You Need Me (:
Just Tell Me What's On Your Mind ,
& I'll Be There To Go Through It With You .
I Love You (:

H-anes.

She's No You .

2008-10-14T02:33:00.000-07:00

Eventhough I Won't Be Able To See You Often ,
Or Maybe Not So Soon .
& I'm Sorry .
Things Aren't Going To Good For Me .
Anway ,
Don't Fight With You're Parents No More Okay ?
Don't Be Sad .
I Feel Bad I Can't Do Much For You .
All I Can Tell You Is To Cheer Up .
Hais .
Just Smile & Be Happy When I'm Not There Okay ?
I Never Wanna See You Sad .
& Don't Keep All Your Prblems To Yourself .
I'll Be There For You .
You've Got Me Like I've Got You . (:
____________________________________________________________________

You Think You're So Fucking Smart ?
You Don't Know What Shit I'm Going Through So Stop Being A Fucking Pest In My Life .
You've Got Your Life .
So Fuck Out Of Mine .
You Think I Don't Know You Know My Blog Link ?
You Can All Me Whatever You Like .
But You're No Fucking Better From Me .
You Got No God Damn Rights To Tell Me What I Am Or Judge Me .
You Think Cause You're Older I'm Suppose To Respect You ?
I'm Not Even Fucking Scared Of You .
You're No Threat To Me .
You Can't Control Me .
So Just Fuck Off Asshole .

H-anes.

Sh-a-ke It

2008-10-08T21:12:00.000-07:00

Sorry Bout Late Update On Blog .
Can't Use The Comp Due To Exams .
I'm Getting Lost In My Own Mind .
I Feel A Need To Think About Things .
But I Don't Know What To Think .
Weird .

Been Having Exams .

Hope Everyone's Gonna Do Well .
ESP. Baby .

Must Do Well .

I Know It's Kinda Late .

But Good Luck To Everyone On Their Results .

EXAMS ARE OVER ! ( Got 2 Papers Left . But Don't Have To Study )

I'm Meeting Baby For The Next 2 days !

Alright !

Friday Gonna Pick Her Up From School .

Go Get

We're Going To Night Safari On Saturday .

Not So Sure Honestly .

Hmm ..

Baby ,

Where Are We Going ? (:

I Love You ♥

H-anes.

Dosen't Seem To Make Sense .

2008-10-04T10:04:00.000-07:00

RANDOM!

I Don't Want To Miss A Thing ;

Six Feet Under The Stars ;

Everything's Magic ;

One Of Those Nights ;

Forever ;

I oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo Take My Hand ;

Send My Love to the Dancefloor ; ooooooooooooooo LOVE
Practice Makes Perfect ;
Slow Dance With A Stranger ; oooooooooooooooooooJESHERE

LIM ,ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo , So Far Gone ;

Tongue Tied ;

She's A Lady ;

When You Look Me In The Eyes ; ooooooooooooooooTo
That's What You Get ;ooooooooooooooooooooooooo The
Here I Stand ;ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo End ♥

Three Cheers For Five Years ;

Shake It ;

Just For Tonight ;

H-anes.

Five Minutes To Midnight

2008-10-03T10:41:00.000-07:00

Happy Half-Way To 2nd Month :D

Baby ,

I'll Be Just Enjoying Life Cause I've Got You .

No Doubt This Relationship Will Ever End .

Through All Those Good & Bad Times ,

We've Been There For Each Other .

You Made Me Smile When I Was Down ,

& I Did The Same For You .

All The Time In The World ,

Or Even All The Time The World Has ,

It's Never Gonna Be Enough For Me .

I'm Missing You Day By Day ,

Second By Second .

So is My Love Growing For You .

26th Will Be There Always No Matter What .

Let's Play A Game ,

If It's Heads ,

I'm Yours .

If It's Tales ,
You're Mine .

I Love Youuuuuuuu . ♥

Next Week Schedule !

Monday : Meetup With Baby ♥

Tuesday : Exam .

Wednesday : Exam .

Thursday : Don't Know .

Friday : Meet Up With Baby ♥

Saturday : Go To Night Safari With Baby & Friends ♥

Sunday : Don't Know .

Get Well Soon Hanes .

& GET WELL JESHEREEEEEE♥

H-anes.

Take Care Alright ? (:

2008-09-30T11:51:00.000-07:00

Selamat Hari Raya People !
Sorry For The Late Update .
Couldn't Use The Computer . :/
Anway .
Nothing To Post Bout .
So ,
Upcoming Events :
MT Paper 1 & Lit Exam .
( I've Gotta Feeling I'll Flunk :0 )
Importaint Events !
Night Safari Outing With Baby & Friends (:
2nd Month With Baby ( 25 Days To Go )
Baby's Cousin BBQ . :o
To Baby :
Do Take Care Alright ?
I'll Take Care Of You As Long & As Much As I Can .
I Love Youu Is The Many Many .
& We Look Alike (:
( Inside Joke )
Take Careeeeeeeeeee k .

H-anes.

What We Share Is Like What No One Eles Have .

2008-09-27T12:55:00.000-07:00

So Yesterday Met Up With Baby ,
Shant Elaborate .
So She Got Me A Photo Album ,
With Our Pictures Inside :O
I Don't Really Care What She Get's Me ,
As Long As I Get To See Her ,
That Would Have Been Good Enough For Me .
Baby , I LOVE YOU ALOT (:
What We Share ,
Is Special To Me .
It'll Never Be Replaced .
Every Moment I've Spent With You Means Alot To Me .
Every Conversation We Had ,
Even If We Didn't Talk ,
I Still Treasure It . (:
You Mean Alot To Me .
28Days , 2nd Month .
Baby , I'm Loving You Till The End (:

-Hanes .

I Love You ! I Love You ! I Love You ! I Love You ! I Love You !

2008-09-25T09:06:00.000-07:00

HAPPY FIRST MONTH BABY !

I LOVE YOU ♥

26.08.08 Is Forever (:

-Hanes ♥ Jeshereeeeeeeeeeeee (:

-Hanes .

It's A Dedication :O

2008-09-22T01:16:00.000-07:00

This Song's Called : Slow Dance With A Stranger By Danger Radio .
It's Dedicated To My Baby , Jeshere . (:
I'm Loving Every Moment With You ♥

There's Some Sentence Or One Part That I Want Her To Know .
Taken From The Song .
' Right now my heart is beating out my chest ,
Going down ,
Yeah , I'm the one that loves you best .
It's the fact that you make my life complete .
You're every fantasy ,
Baby . '
(:
Baby , No Matter What ,
Nothing's Ever Gonna Make Me Not Love You . ♥
26th Arrow .
Gonna Hold It For A Month In 4 Days (:

What Am I Thinking ?

2008-09-20T07:07:00.000-07:00

Here's Something Some People Can Stare At .
I'm Going To Take Random Thoughts On My Mind .
& Someone Msn Me Or Leave A Fs Message To Me Telling Me What's It Mean .
If You're Bored .
No One's Asking You To Do It .
Here Goes :
1. Give Me Your Hand & I'll Never Let Go .
2. Why Put Everything On The Line ?
3. Freeze While I Look Into Your Eyes .
4. I'm Doing Things I'm Unaware Of .
5. He's Just Someone I Don't Wanna Know .
6. I Can't Look In His Eyes & Smile .
7. Words Don't Express How I Feel , Or What I Feel .
8. The Thought Of You , Makes Everything Go Round .

-Hanes .

Complications & No Recalled Conversations .

2008-09-20T06:45:00.000-07:00

Nothing To Post About .
Tempreature's Rising .
I'm Feeling Worst Than Before .
I'm Always Switching Off The Lights When I'm Alone In The Room .
I Guess I Don't Want People To Know Where I Am .
6Days Till It's Out First Month .
I Love You (:
Nothings Not Gonna Make Me Love You .
You're All That I Need .

-Hanes .

Jealous ; One Thing I Can't Control .

2008-09-17T23:44:00.000-07:00

Okay ,
Nothing To Post .
Just Got Back Home From School .
Don't Know What I'm Gonna Do Today .
Lie In Bed & Just Stare Into Stuff Blindly .
Seriously Bored :/
Exams Exams Exams .
Shit .
Hopefully I Get To Do Well .
Anyway ,
I'm Gonna Do My Best .

-Hanes .

Baby ;

8 More Days Till Our 1st Month .

It's So Great Just To Last With You For A Month .

& I Hope I Can Last Long With You .

Very Long

Anyway ,

I Know That I Sometimes No Mood To Talk .

Cause Of ' Him ' . :/

I Don't Know .

But Seriously .

He Makes Me Want To ..

Get Angry .

But I'm Trying Not To Be jealous .

& I'm Sorry For My Stupid Actions :/

I Love You ♥

ALOT .

He's Just Too Much .

2008-09-16T23:34:00.000-07:00

The Reason We Do Stuff Like This ,

Is Cause We're Bored .

3 Whole Periods Of FREE PERIOD .

Which Was A Waste Of Time .

Nothing Much Happened Today .

Pissed Off .

-Hanes .

I Can't Bear To Hold The Hurt I Did To You .

2008-09-15T06:24:00.000-07:00

When I See You Cry ,
It Makes Me Wanna Die .
I'm Sorry I Made You Feel Like This .
I'm Sorry About All The Things I Said .
I Know I Can't Take It Back .
I Just Wanna Say I'm Sorry .
You Make My World Go Round .
Without You There's Nothing I Can Do .
I'd Do Anything Just To Make Things Right .
I Can't Change What I've Done .
But I Want To Make You Happy .
Whatever I Did .
I Want To Make Things Better For You .
But Just Tell Me What's Bothering You .
I Know I've Hurt You .
But Baby ,
Just Tell Me What's On Your Mind .

-Hanes.

The Thought Of It Really Makes Me Angry .

2008-09-14T12:02:00.000-07:00

Well ,
Mom's Back Home After 2 Weeks Of Leaving Me & My Sister To Dad's Hell .
She Bought Loads Of Stuff .
Didn't Really Talk Much Since It Was Late At Night .
& Everyone's Alseep .
I Don't Really Have The Mood To Go Into Detail Of What's Up .
Eleven Days To Go .
Take Care ,

-Hanes .

It's Never Gonna Be Gone

2008-09-12T23:53:00.000-07:00

Sorry For Not Updating So Often .
I'm Rather Lazy .
So Yesterday ,
Went Out With : Jeshere♥ , Khairi , Hizam & Faiz .
Firstly Met Up With Jeshere At Her School .
So Called Her Friend ,
She Was Eating .
Waited .
& Then Shawn Came Out .
Entertained Me For Awhile .
& They Came Out .
Walked To Dk Where .
See Bag ,
Then Slacked At KFC .
Then Walked & Headed For Tamp Mall .
Sent Baby To Yamaha .
Then Met Khairi & Gang Outside Yamaha .
Went To Ask If They Could Fix The Guitar ,
Cannot .
Then Blah Blah Blah .
Went There & Back To Tamp .
Waited At Yamaha For Baby .
Then Walked To The Open Plaza With Baby To Meet Up With The Rest .
Then Walked Around Tamp Mall & Century Square .
We Were Like Playing Hide&Seek/Catching With Them .
They Were Stalking Us Around .
Then Took MRT Back To Pasir Ris .
Walked Around .
Then Slacked In Library .
Damn .
Can't See Her For The Next 2 Days ):
13More Days To 1st Month ^^
Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ~
Take Care ,

-Hanes .

Looking In Your Own Reflection .

2008-09-09T11:03:00.000-07:00

Have You Ever Watched A Movie ,
But Have A Different Feeling .
Well ,
I Was Watching A Moive ,
& I Felt Like I Was Watching Myself .
The Boy's Character Was Almost Like Me .
But There Was A Difference ,
I Don't Know For myself .
The Thought Of Knowing That One Day You're Somewhere ,
& Next You're Lost .
It's Kinda Difficult To Get Back To The Beginning .
The Mistakes I Made In Life Are Exactly Like The Character .
Let Me Give The Character A Name .
Drake .
Drake Hated His Life ,
His Parents Are Divorced .
He Fell In Love With This Girl .
He Was So Devoted To Her ,
Made A Promise That When He Grew Up ,
He'd Marry Her .
They Were Together For 6 months .
But After Those 6 Months Are over ,
The Lost Contact .
Years After That They Bumped Into Each Other On A Summer Day .
They Started Getting Close Again ,
& They Developed A Feeling Again .
He Asked For her Hand In Marriage .
& After Their Wedding ,
He Told Her That He Always Kept His Promise .
Eventualy ,
His Parents Passed Away .
He Never Wanted What His Parents Had .
Love , Then Nothing .
He Ask Her If They'd Ever Last .
& She Told Him That She's Already Vowed .
During Their Marriage ,
' To Death Do Us Part '
That's My Wrap Up .
It Was A Romance Movie .
So Yeah .
First Time I Wrote About This Kinda Stuff In My Blog .
Take Care ,
I Love You Jeshere Baby ♥
16Days To 1st Month , 16 Days Of Romance (:

-Hanes .

Day 14 ; 17 Days Left .

2008-09-08T10:53:00.000-07:00

School Ended ,
& Went To Tamp Mall To Go Meet Baby .
On The Way There Saw Sister ,
HiHi , Bye .
Saw Baby And Got High :DDD
Walked To Under A Block ,
& Waited For Waikin To Come .
Had Loads Of Fun With Baby ,
But Time Was Never Enough .
Hais .
I Miss You Bady . ):
Hope To See You As Soon As Possible .
Sorry I Can't Make It On Thursday . :/
I Think I'll End Here Bah .
I Love You Jeshere :]

-Hanes .

It's Opened , Once Again .

2008-09-07T14:43:00.000-07:00

RAHHH .
School's Gonna Start In About 2 Hours .
I've Gotta Go Pack My Bag .
& Err ,
What Am I Suppose To Bring ?
Is There Any Homework ?
Damn ,
I've Been Slacking .
Gotta Do Well For EOY !
STUDY FOR 2 Hours A DAY AT LEAST . ( I'll Try To )
Oh Well ,
Better Start Now Before I Start Forgetting This & That .
Crap .
Gonna Meet Baby After School .
Update On That Later .
Take Care Yeah ?

-Hanes .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY ! ♥

2008-09-07T01:13:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESHERE BABY

Baby's 15th Already :)
Congrats !
Hope All Your Wishes Will Come True For You ,
And Have A HAPPY DAY !
Get Well Soon Okay Baby ?
I Love You ♥
Your Picture Of Your Cake On Top .
I Cannot Bake So Well :{
Sad .
See You On Monday Okay ?
Happy Birthday Once Again !

-Hanes .

Lost Without You

2008-09-05T13:37:00.000-07:00

Haven't Blogged For The Past Few Days .
But Here I Am Again .
It's 4.40am ?
& I'm Going To Sleep .
Just Gonna Wrap Everything Up .
Talked To Baby The Past Few Days .
Someone's Birthday's Coming Up Oh ~
1 More Day . ^^
I'm Gonna Be The First To Wish You !
Bwhahahahaha .
Schools Gonna Reopen .
Not Looking Foward To That .
But Looking Foward To Monday After School .
Not Gonna Say What's Gonna Happen .
Take Care Everyone .
20More Days , 480Hours , 28635Mins . 1 month ♥

-Hanes

Why Does It Gotta Be Like That ?

2008-09-03T05:04:00.000-07:00

It's 8pm At Night ,
& Raining So Badly .
I'm Freezing To My Toes .
A Sudden Drop Of Mood .
I Don't Even Know Why .
Shant Elaborate What's On My Mind .
Countdown : 4days .

-Hanes.

If You Weren't Here . I'd Be Dead .

2008-09-02T14:01:00.000-07:00

So I've Been Up Since 2am With Baby ^^
Talked On Msn .
Updated Blog While She Edited Pictures ,
Like The One Above Was Edited By Her .
Not Much To Post .
To Baby♥ :
You Mean Alot To Me ,
& Every Small Thing That Happens To You .
Will Affect Me .
& I'll Go Through It With You .
Day By Day ,
My Love For You Grows Stronger .
I'm Devoted To You .
I Don't Think I'd Be This Happy If I Ain't Got You .
I'm Gonna Make The Best Relationship You Ever Had .
Tiongxim To Jeshereeee :]
I Love You Truck Loads .
& There's More Trucks Coming Your Way .
There's No One Who's Gonna Ever Replace You In My Heart .
Cause You're The Only One That I Need .
I LOVE YOU JESHERE ♥

-Hanes .

Hey , I MIss You .

2008-09-01T23:18:00.000-07:00

Bored At Home Today .
Can't Really Do Much .
I Changed My Blogskin .
Finally .
I've Got Nothing Better To Do .
Hais .
I Miss You So Badly .
When Do I Get To See You Again ?
Hope You're Safe & Having Fun In M'sia .
Been On The Comp The Whole Day .
Seriously Bored To Death .
The Thought Of You Keeps Spinning In My Mind .
Keep Hoping You're Okay .
5 More Days To Your Birthday .
& I'm Gonna Be The First To Wish You ! :D
I Love You Jeshere :]
Take Care ,

-Hanes .

2008-08-31T05:43:00.000-07:00

I Don't Care .

I'm Missing Baby Badly .
Must Tahan 8days Without Seeing Her . :/
Shit .
Buay Tahan .
Nothing Much Happen The Past Few Days .
All I Can Think About Is Baby :/
Seriously Can't Get Her Off My Mind .
I Miss Youuuuuuuuuuuuuu .
Within The Next 8 Days .
I'm Gonna Miss You Damn Lots .
I Don't Really Have Much To Post About .
Take Care ,

-Hanes .

2008-08-24T23:40:00.001-07:00

Reverse , Reverse

24.08.08
Went Out With Jeshere & 2 Of Her Friends ,
Tinghui & Waikin .
Went Over To her Place First To Meet Up With Her ,
Then After Awhile Headed To East Point .
I Forgot To Bring Her Cookie !@$#%# .
Nevermind ,
Passing It To Her On Wednesday .
Hopefully .
So Back To The Outing .
From East Point ,
We Went To White Sands .
Tinghui Bought A Doughnut ,
& We Headed For Tamp Mall .
Walked Around .
Then Went To The Interchange ,
Bused Here & There .
& Honestly .
I Don't Really Know Where We Were Going .
I Just Said Anything To Everything .
Then Went To Tinghui's Place ,
Cause Her Leg Was Injured Or Something .
Then Played Uno .
Then There Was A Part Where I Put a +4 , +2 , +2 .
& Someone Oh So Smart Go Put A Reverse Reverse .
So She Had To Draw 10cards .
So After All That .
Went To The Interchange To Go Back To Jeshere's Place .
Waikin Was Going The Same Way As Us .
So We Took The Same Mrt .
Said Goodbyes ,
& Bus-ed To Jeshere's House .
Really Wanted To Join Them For Dinner .
But Could Not Due To Parents .
Sorry .
So She Sent Me Off ,
& Cabbed To Compass Point .

Define Hell .

25.08.08
Felt Really Bad Once I Woke Up .
Felt Damn Weak That I Thought I Was Sick .
Really Lazy To Go To School .
But Had No Other Choice .
Silent Reading : Dead As Hell
Geog : Sucked As Hell .
Mt : Tired As Hell .
Maths : Irritating Hell .
Eng : Fun As Hell .
Music : Boring As Hell .
& Today ,
I Was In Hell .
During English ,
A Couple Of Us Asked People To Sign Our Arms & Legs .
Well ,
For Me It Was Arms Only .

-Hanes .

我真的很想念你

& 我想要在你身旁

2008-08-23T03:44:00.000-07:00

So Much For A Round Of Appulause

Was It The Stupidest Mistake I Made ?
Was I Suppose To Keep It To Myself ?
Hais . :/
Damn Myself .
Such An Idiot .
Did I Make A Fool Out Of Myself ?
I'm Feeling Like An Ass . :/

-Hanes .

2008-08-22T20:26:00.000-07:00

Six Feet Under The Stars

I've Got Not Much To Say .
But I'm In A Better Mood Than Usual .
I'm Going Out With Jesh Jesh Tomorrow :]
That's Going To Be Great .
& I'm Gonna Bake Cookies For Her Later On In The Afternoon .
Sister's Gonna Be Out For A Party At Around 5.30 ?
& Mom Will Be Reaching Back In Singapore At The Same Time .
Not So Sure What I'm Going To Do Now .
Or Even Later On .
If I Wanna Bake Cookies ,
I've Gotta Wait Till Mom's Back .
Or Maybe I'm Asking Dad For $$ .
Anyway .
I'm In A Seriously Good Mood :]

-Hanes .

2008-08-21T21:55:00.000-07:00

Scribble Trash On A Piece Of Paper

Skipped School Today .

Woke Up At Around 9+ ?

Checked Phone ,

Replied Sms-es .

Played The Comp .

Dad Came Back Home With Food .

Ate My Meal .

Went To Take A Shower .

I Wanna Go Out Tomorrow & Sunday !

I've Got Distinction For My Past 3 Test .

Let Me Go Out Pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee .

I Said Please .

I'm Damn Bored At Home .

I've Got Nothing To Do .

I'm Really Getting Bored At Home Using The Computer .

Yes ,

It's True .

I'm Bored Of Using The Computer .

I'd Rather Be Out Having Fun Than Being Stucked At Home .

Come On Man .

I'm Growing Up .

Give Me Some Time With My Friends .

& Yes I Know You're Going To Say That In School Not Enough Taking ?

Well ,
That's What Dad Would Say .

-Hanes .

2008-08-21T03:58:00.000-07:00

Soundtrack Of Sorrows & Pain

Nothign Much Happened .

After School Ended ,

Stayed Back In School To Go To Singapore Sports School

& Watch The C Boys Play Soccer Against Queensway Secondary .

Play Play Play . Score Was 2 - 1 .

We Won !

At The End Of The Match ,

We Headed For School .

While In The Bus Back ,

We Shouted : " GREENVIEW MENANG ! GREENVIEW MENANG ! GREENVIEW MENANG(Win) ! "

While Passing By Queensway Secondary .

Kind Of Bad Of Us Yeah ?

But Who Really Gives A Shit .

In The Bus Was Really Silent .

Sudden Lost Of Mood .

But I Think I'm Fine Already .

Really Hope Can Go Out On Sunday With Jeshere & Her Friends .

& Hope Tomorrow Can Bake Cookies For Her .

-Hanes

j-e-s-h-e-r-e :]

2008-08-20T06:38:00.000-07:00

Same Old Brand New You

Nothing Much Happened Today .
Got Home At Around 4+ .
Things Aren't Going So Well As It Seems ,
But What Other Choice Do I Have But To Follow Them ?
Days Are Getting Bored With Nothing To Do At Home .
Nothing Seems To Entertain Me .
Even If It Did .
I'm Not Getting High For Long .
Or Maybe Not Even At All .
Nothings New .
Nothings Making Things Fun .
I'm Getting Bored Of Everything . :/
Damn .

-Hanes .

2008-08-18T00:18:00.000-07:00

Tales Don't Tell Themselves

The Cars Are Moving Like A Half A Mile An Hour ,

And I Started Staring At The Passengers Who're Waving Goodbye .

Can You Tell Me What Was Ever Really Special About Me All This Time ?

I Think It Turned Ten o'clock But I Don't Really Know ,

And I Can't Remember Caring For An hour Or So .

Started Crying And I Couldn't Stop Myself ,

I Started Running But There's No Where To Run To ,

I Sat Down On The Street Took A Look At Myself .

Said Where You Going Man You Know The World Is Headed For Hell .

Say Your Goodbyes If You've Got Someone You Can't Say Goodbye To .

-Hanes .

2008-08-16T03:16:00.000-07:00

Unwanted Attendance

What Else Am I To Say ?

I've Got Nothing .

I'm In Need Of Someone To Talk To .

& Yet Everyone's Gone .

No One Is Needed Anymore .

Or To Be Accurate ,

I'm Not Needed Anymore .

HANES IS Everything Negative .

Who Needs A Kid Who Can't Do Anything ?

I'm Unaccepted By My Dad .

She Doesn't Need Me .

What Else Do I Have ?

In All My Life I Wished I Never Had To Do Things I Didn't .

But Now ,

I've Got No Other Choice .

I'm Going Back To Last Year .

Faking Everything's Gonna Be Alright .

Lying That I'm Okay .

Keeping Everything To Myself .

Making Life A Living Hell For Myself .

I Hope Everything Goes Fine For You ,

& Whoever You're With Whenever .

-Hanes . Thansk

Edited! 11.03pm

Thanks To :

Sarah For Cheering Me Up .

& Yes You Rock . Lols .

2008-08-15T05:34:00.001-07:00

I'm Stuck At Homeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee -.-
I @#$% Bored At Home .
Bann From Going Out Or Doing Anything .
I've Been @#$% No Mood For The Past Few Days .
TONNING TILL SUNDAY ! :D
Lols .
Not That Great .
Don't Know What To Do . :/
Haa .
I Don't Know What To Post .
I've Got No Mood Now .
Take Care ,
-Hanes :]

2008-08-14T00:28:00.001-07:00

No Fucking Mood Today .
_l_

2008-08-13T07:48:00.001-07:00

I Don't Know What To Post So I'm Just Gonna Write It All Out .
For The Past Few Days I've Been Staring Into Space .
I Don't Know What's Wrong With Me ,
But ,
I Feel Rather Different Than Usual .
Dad's Been Treating Me Like Shit ,
Asking Me To Do This & That .
I've Been Bann From Going Out Or Staying Back .
If He Treats Me Differently ,
Or Rather Like A Stranger .
Does He Even Care ?
Mom Says He's Got A Funny Way Of Showing How He Cares .
& How He Show's It Is By His Temper .
Honestly I Don't Know .
School Was Alright For The First Few Periods ,
Then It Started To Suck .
I Don't Really Know Why I'm Happy ,
Or Even If I'm Happy .
I Don't Have A Reason To ,
But Why Do I Still Do It ?
Damn , Things Are Seriously Getting Complicating .
I Miss Her Alot ,
That's What I Know .
I Wanna Be With Her ,
Cause She's Everything Up & Not Down .
She's Always Happy ,
Or She Either Finds A Way To Be Happy .
She's Always Saying That She's Not Good Enough For Me ,
Aren't I Not Good Enough For Her ?
What You Say To Me ,
I Don't Care .
Cause I've Loved You Deeply To My Heart .
I Don't Care How You Look ,
Cause I Already Love You .
On That One Day ,
When I Get To Meet You ,
I'd Take That Day As The Day I Had A Reason .
A Reason Not Only To Do Something ,
But To Be Something .
I May Not Be The Best ,
But I'll Try To Be Anything & Everything For You .

2008-08-10T03:08:00.000-07:00

There were two sweethearts in a quiet and beautiful small town. They went to the beach for sunrise and sunset every day. Every passer-by envied them two very much.

But one day, in a car accident, the girl got hurt very seriously. She was lying in bed in a hospital and still never came to life after quite a few days. In the daytime, the boy was calling his sweetheart who was unconscious all the time at her bedside; at night, he ran to the church in the small town and prayed to God. His tears had run dry.

A month passed, the girl was still unconscious .The boy became very languish, but he still continued his calling and prayer. Finally one day, God was moved by him. So He decided to make an exception for him. God asked him: "Are you willing to trade it with your life?" The boy answered without any hesitation: "I am!" God said: "Ok, then I could let her come to life as soon as possible, but you have to become a dragonfly for three years, will you?" The boy was still very determined: "I will!"

At dawn, the boy became a beautiful dragonfly. He said goodbye to God and flew to the hospital quickly. The girl really regained consciousness and talked with a doctor next to her, but the dragonfly could hear nothing.

A few days later, the girl recovered and went out of the hospital. But she was unhappy. She seeked news about the boy everywhere. But no one knew where he was. She sought him every day. But actually the dragonfly that was just the boy flew around her every time everywhere, though he couldn't whisper her name or hug her. He had to bear her turning a blind eye to him alone. The summer was gone and the wind of the fall blew off the leaves. The dragonfly had to leave. So he landed on the girl's shoulder for the last time. He wanted to fondle her face with his wings and kiss her forehead with his small mouth, but he was too small for her to notice.

How time flied. The spring came again. The dragonfly couldn't wait to fly back to his sweetheart. But he saw a tall and handsome young man standing beside her this time. At that very moment, the dragonfly almost fell from the air. People talked about how serious the girl hurt in the accident, and how sweet and kind the doctor was, and how reasonable their love was. Of course they also said the girl was happy again as before.

The dragonfly was very sad. And in the following days, he often saw the man taking his own sweetheart to see the sunrise and sunset together on the beach. But he could do nothing except stopping on her shoulder occasionally.

It seemed that this summer was extremely long. The dragonfly flew around with his broken heart every day. He had no courage to approach his sweetheart. He felt suffocated when he heard their whisper and laughter.

In the third summer, the dragonfly didn't fly to see his sweetheart that often any more. She was cuddled by the doctor, and her face was kissed by him. She had no time to pay attention to a sad dragonfly and she was in no mood to look back on the days with her previous sweetheart.

The deadline of the promise that the dragonfly made to God was nearing fast. On the last day of the third year, the dragonfly's sweetheart married the doctor.

The dragonfly flew to the church quietly, and settled on the shoulder of God. He heard them vow to God: "I do!" He saw the doctor putting the ring on the finger of his sweetheart, and them kissing sweetly. Tears full of sorrow fell from the dragonfly's eyes.

God sighed: "Do you regret?" The dragonfly wiped his tears and said: "Never!" God felt happy about that and said: "Then, you can become yourself a man tomorrow." The dragonfly shook his head and said: "No, thanks. Just let me be a dragonfly forever and ever..."

Sometimes, it is your destiny that you have to lose someone. Sometimes there won't be a good ending for you and somebody. To love someone is not to own her, but if you have her, you should cherish her forever.

Everythings Turns Out Different ,
With A Different Feeling .
I Guess You Really Want Me To Be Away ..